enough is enough

I need to get my shit together, just like any American. But, for serious. After a series of embarrassing scholastic incidents, apparently my efforts to get my shit together this semester haven't been enough.

And I thought I had been doing so well; no drinking, no dates, no drugs during the week. Doing the homework the day I got it.

Yeah, I'm still fucking up. Stupid fuck-up shit, too, like average 19-year-old girl stuff, but still..... I'm writing a new set of rules for myself in the hopes of turning them into habits. Of a highly effective person. Just tryin' to live better, man. I've started to realize that all those things my parents told me to do were not because they wanted to impose their power on me, but, oh, because in the REAL WORLD people have to do these things to survive (I'm such an idiot)

Anyways, I'm writing these on the blog in order to keep myself in check, and maybe inspire some of y'all to get your shit together, too.


1.no drinking caffeine after noon

I thought I was pretty tolerant to caffeine, especially after pretty much overdosing on it last semester before my history final. And then there was the Sparks incident, where I drank a Sparks Lite and a half and thought I was going to die. Like, I had to be massaged and cooed Disney songs to because my heart hurt so much. This was worse than the time I accidentally mixed my antihistamine with alcohol. Kind of really embarrassing. And I'm convinced all my caffeine drinking is starting to keep me up so friggin' late. So, no drinking caffeine after noon, just like my mom used to say to me when I was a little 'un.


2. no computer after 11 pm

This probably sounds ridiculous, especially because I'm writing this at almost 3 in the morning. But someone told me some shit about how computers arent a constant source of light, so they flicker, and that keeps your brain awake, and you stay awake, and only get three hours of sleep and sleep through classes and die. I want to finish these two books I borrowed, Nine Stories and The Unbearable Lightness of Being...I've been meaning to get back into reading again. It's been a while. Could sure do with some good books. Could sure do with some quaaaality sleep.



3. no drinking alcohol Monday through Thursday during school year


This is just sort of a "DUH" to me. Save money, save brain cells, save self from embarrassing hangover'd presence in class the next day. There's more to it, though, I've never been a big drinker, but alcoholism runs in my family. And alkies on the real alkie front are not cute. This rule will also apply to drugs, not limited to but including sleeping pills and sleeping syrup.



4. WAKE UP WHEN THE ALARM GOES OFF YOU SODDING IDIOT

Self-explanatory, I hope, but I'm starting to use two alarms, I'm in the market for a new one. I'm always late to class. I sleep through my f-ing life. FML. This is a big one.


5. take fitness more seriously

I just started running again. Although I did not receive the clarity I had hoped for, I did feel pretty damn good after hopping in the shower and stretching. I'm already a very active person, playing with kids and having a long commute. Living in New York means I walk like 2 miles a day and it doesn't faze me, so I have to step it up. Running is what I want. I went for twenty-five minutes and only used my inhaler once. I hope to step it up to an hour and no inhaler. But, BABY STEPS! It feels so good once those endorphins get goin', and there's nothing like fitting into your skinny, skimpy summer clothes.


6. schedule every week on Sundays

I used to do this. Why did I stop? I'm going to do it again. Idiot.



7. call family 2x week

I have always been very disconnected from my family, for some reason. I mean, I currently live 50 miles from a handful of extended family, 1300 from my mother and 3000+ from both my fathers. I should be a good person and call them, right? I don't want to go through life not knowing my family, which is the regret I have whenever I think about my great-Aunt Sally's death and my grandfather, who's 5-year death-a-versary came by on April Fool's.


8. limit processed foods and dairy

Tryin' to stick to this "whole foods" thing. Whole grain, fruits, white meats, veggies, limited dairy, limited sweets, limited grease...it gets easier every day but having a horrible junk food addiction (like a crackhead, I tell you!) makes it a pain.




These are a handful of rules, but I'm rilly rilly gonna try to abide by them and get my shit together before summer starts...let us pray.


-Miss Pepper