there's something to be said about the beauty of a good epiphany.
there's something even more beautiful about letting a few things said to you become one giant epiphany.
I realized the other day that I am really in the prime of my life.
I will never be this beautiful, thin, smart, attractive, ambitious or young in my life again.
Why am I wasting it trying to be this person who wants this "plan" of mine I have in my head to take place right now?
Why not just really enjoy my youth?
Go home with grimy dudes. Drink at bars. Skip class to go to Coney Island. Walk to Queens out of boredom. Dance on tables. Kiss your friend when he says he likes you. Don't leave the house 'til midnight. Take cabs to the Lower East Side. Take adderall. Take drugs. Don't take drugs. Chain smoke. Make out in taxis. Go home with 35-year-old men who don't know you're 19, do whatever it is you so desire to do because, let's face it, when you're in grad school, when you're working a 9-5, when you have kids, you can't do that shit, because you have to be responsible and shit.
Truth be told, I still have to be responsible while I enjoy my youth.
School, health and work are my only restrictions:
I have to go to work to make money. I have to turn assignments in on time. I have to go to class. I can't drink or do bad things on school nights. I have to do my homework. I can't get involved with guys who I know will break my heart and make me bedridden with heartsickness. I can't drink cheap vodka because I'll get a migraine. I can't do shit that will get me arrested.
I can't behave like a total idiot.
That's the whole thing.
Enjoy your youth.
Enjoy the few responsibilities you have.
Enjoy your youth responsibly.
and LOVE IT.
-pepper
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